Sunday, 21 September 2025

Mirrors

 Elias Thorne was a man of precise angles and controlled lines. An architect by trade, he found solace in the ordered logic of blueprints and the clean sweep of a T-square. His apartment was minimalist, his routine clockwork. Until the mirrors started lying.


It began subtly, a fleeting shimmer in the bathroom glass one Tuesday morning. As he lathered shaving cream, his reflection's eyes seemed to hold a fleeting, glacial glint, a predatory amusement entirely alien to his own weary gaze. He blinked, and it was gone, replaced by the familiar, slightly stressed face he knew. Lack of sleep, he chalked it up to. The looming deadline for the Beaumont Tower project was playing tricks on his mind.


But it didn’t stop.


The next day, catching his image in the polished steel of his office toaster, he saw it again. A smirk – thin, cruel, utterly devoid of warmth – curving his reflection’s lips as he reached for his toast. Elias froze, his hand hovering. The reflection held the smirk, its eyes locking onto his with an unsettling hunger, before snapping back to his own neutral expression the moment he consciously registered it.


This wasn't just distortion. This was a presence.


He started avoiding mirrors. Shaving became a tactile exercise, eyes fixed on the ceramic sink. He walked through shop windows with his gaze firmly on the pavement. He learned to navigate his world by inference, by memory, by anything but a direct visual of himself. The fear wasn't just of what he saw, but of what it saw in him. It saw his anxieties, his self-doubt, the gnawing regret of the compromised design for the old library, a project where he’d let corporate pressure stifle his vision. It saw the fear of a repeat failure with Beaumont Tower.


The sinister Elias, whom he silently dubbed 'Elias-Primevil', grew bolder. It no longer merely flickered. It held. In the elevator mirror, Primevil would lean in, eyes narrowed, a silent, knowing judgment. Its head would tilt, a gesture of mockery, as Elias silently berated himself for a minor drafting error. Sometimes, when he was particularly stressed, Primevil’s lips would move, a slow, deliberate whisper that resonated not in his ears, but directly in the hollow space behind his eyes: "Weak. Afraid. You'll fail again."


He became a recluse. His perfectly ordered apartment started to fray at the edges, mirroring his internal chaos. Takeout containers piled up. Dust motes danced in the shafts of light that Primevil seemed to relish, making the glass of picture frames and the glossy surface of his TV screen shimmer with potential menace. His project suffered; deadlines blurred, and his meticulous attention to detail gave way to panicked, often incorrect, revisions.


His friend and colleague, Sarah, noticed. "Elias, are you alright? You look like you've seen a ghost. And your work… it's not you."


He snapped, a sudden surge of Primevil’s venom rising within him. "Just leave me alone, Sarah! Worry about your own deadlines!" The words were harsh, uncharacteristic, and the fleeting glimpse of Primevil in the shiny surface of her coffee mug gave him a grotesque, satisfied nod. Elias immediately regretted it, but the damage was done. Sarah retreated, hurt etched on her face.


That night, alone in his apartment, the truth hit him with the force of a physical blow. Primevil wasn't just a reflection. It was the manifestation of every single negative thought, every crippling doubt, every buried fear he had ever entertained about himself. It was the unacknowledged monster of his self-loathing, given form by his refusal to confront it.


He stumbled into his bathroom, the one room he’d tried hardest to avoid. The large, framed mirror above the sink gleamed, reflecting the dim light from the hallway. He stared at his own haggard face, at the dark circles under his eyes, the tremor in his hand.


Then, Primevil solidified.


It stood there, perfectly mimicking his posture, but its eyes burned with cold fire. Its lips were drawn back in a sneer, revealing teeth that seemed just a little too sharp. "Look at you," it hissed, the words echoing not in the room, but in the prison of his skull. "Broken. Alone. You drove her away. Just like you always do."


Elias felt a primal urge to smash the mirror, to obliterate the tormentor. His hand twitched towards a heavy glass tumbler. But then, he remembered Sarah's hurt face, his own uncharacteristic outburst. This wasn't merely a reflection; this was a siren song to his darkest impulses.


"No," he whispered, his voice hoarse.


Primevil laughed, a dry, rasping sound. "No? You think you can deny me? I am you, Elias. Every failure, every regret, every moment of weakness. I am the truth you drown in your perfect little plans."


Elias looked deeper, past the fear, past the revulsion, into the cold, empty eyes of Primevil. He saw the library, the compromised design, the shame he’d buried beneath layers of professional detachment. He saw the fear of disappointing his parents, the anger at his own perceived inadequacy. These were his demons. And Primevil was their amplified, monstrous voice.


"You are a part of me," Elias corrected, his voice gaining strength, "but you are not all of me." He took a shaky breath. "Yes, I made mistakes. Yes, I compromised on the library. I was afraid. I was angry. I was… human."


Primevil’s sneer wavered, a flicker of surprise in its cold gaze.


"And yes," Elias continued, stepping closer to the mirror, "I hurt Sarah. That was my anger, my fear, lashing out. But I will apologize. I will make amends." He looked directly into Primevil's eyes, meeting their challenge. "You feed on my self-loathing, on my refusal to forgive myself. But I won't let you anymore."


He raised his hand, not to strike, but to place it gently on the cool glass. "I acknowledge you," he said, his voice firm, "I acknowledge the fear, the doubt, the anger. They are real. But they do not define me. They are not my master."


Primevil roared, a soundless scream that shook Elias to his core. Its features distorted, twisting into a grotesque mask of rage and agony. The cold fire in its eyes flickered, then dimmed. Its sharp teeth receded. Its sneer softened into something akin to pain, then confusion.


"I choose to learn from my mistakes," Elias said, his eyes unwavering. "I choose to forgive myself. I choose to be better."


As he spoke, the monstrous distortion in the mirror began to unravel. The sharp angles softened, the cruel lines blurred. The predatory glint in its eyes faded, replaced by something weary, something resigned. Primevil shrunk, coalesced, until it was nothing more than Elias's own reflection – tired, yes, still bearing the marks of his struggle, but undoubtedly his own.


He stood there for a long time, simply breathing, looking at his true reflection. The perfectionist lines of his life had been shattered, but in its place was something more honest, more human. The demons hadn't vanished entirely; he knew they would always be there, whispers in the dark corners of his mind. But now, he understood them. He had looked them in the eye, and he had claimed back his power.


The next morning, Elias called Sarah. He apologized, truly and humbly. He started working again, his designs still precise, but now imbued with a newfound depth, a willingness to take risks. He still saw his reflection, in shop windows and car mirrors, but now it was just him. Sometimes, a shadow of the old fear would linger, a phantom smirk or glint in his periphery, but Elias would meet it with a quiet, knowing gaze. He had confronted the monster in the glass, and in doing so, he had begun to rebuild the man within. The lines of his life were no longer perfectly straight, but they were, finally, his own.

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